Day 5

Today was Day number 5 without Taylor.

I have truly discovered that my heart is with my missionary in Provo<3
I miss him more than anything, and times are so hard right now, that all I can do is cry and wish that he was by my side.

I spent majority of my day in bed, crying. My Dad and I haven't spoken since Taylor left, because I'm unbelievably mad at him. Today, while I was talking to my mom, I said a joke to her, but he overheard and thought I was serious. He started yelling at me. My mom tried telling him that it was a joke, but he wouldn't have it. I went into my room hysterical, because on top of all of these emotions I'm feeling with Tay being gone, my Dad has been adding to it with his drama.
I'm depressed. I do nothing but lay in bed and cry every single day. It's not just over Taylor though, I swear! I wouldn't get myself THAT worked up about him...it's everything. The fact that my Dad hates me, my car's gone, my boyfriend is gone, school is hard...

My parents are getting a divorce. My mom is freaking out because, since she's a special ed teacher, she doesn't make much money. She came to me very upset because she's unsure of how to support her and I together. I've been having terrible luck lately with jobs too, so idk how this is all going to play out.

Everything is happening at horrible timing, and it's ten times harder without my best friend here to talk to. :(

I want things to get better. Please!